I am so intimate with this word it should’ve been the name on my birth certificate. I am the queen of deadlines. If a project has no defined deadline I most definitely will not complete it. The coming of Christ will probably meet me in bed sprawled over a pile of unfinished projects I swore I’d get back to. I am so good at this I’m voted most likely to be late to her own funeral in my family (sounds like a prayer to me)
It’s not much laziness as it is my perfectionist self putting things off till the time is right. You and I both know the right time to do anything is the present. I know this, my therapist knows this and yet here I am. Writing this article in you guessed it…The last minute. How I wasn’t late to my birth remains a mystery to me.
My dying wish will be to be buried under the mountain of books I have acquired over the years but never got to read. My family will be more than happy to oblige me.
Before you look at me sideways, know that it’s a common trait we all have. Some people eventually get around to managing theirs. There’ll always be that one thing we are hardly in the mood to do but need to and as long as we have the hope for tomorrow we have the option to put whatever it is we have to do off till then.
Now that you know how hopeless I am let me defend myself by saying it is not entirely my fault. No really it isn’t.
David Cain (a writer) explained that procrastination is not typically a function of laziness, apathy or work ethic as it is often regarded to be. It is a neurotic self defense behaviour that develops to protect a person’s sense of self worth
He believes procrastinators are people who have developed an unusually strong association between their performance and their value as a person. The idea of failing or receiving criticism about their work is so painful it leads to hesitation when it comes to the prospect of doing anything that reflects their ability.
Basically David Cain is saying most procrastinators can be so passionate about their work they do not want to fail at it, they absolutely loathe the idea so much they put off practically everything they have to do because of the feeling of inadequacy.
I agree with David. Not just because I’m a victim of this epidemic that affects more than half of the world’s population (not Covid) but because it is a step in the right direction to understand the root of the problem which is where the work of curbing it will begin.
In real life we all have to get things done no matter how scary it might be or how long we keep putting it off, especially if it’s things we care about. (Note to self).
This article was written by Annie Shaka; connect with her on Instagram via here